Over the week was great. Got to spend time with family, eat some good food, and celebrate Chinese New Years. It’s always nice going back home because I can spend some time and escape from all my other problems.
I’ve thought about the problem from 1 or 2 weeks ago and I’ve decided there’s no point to it. Just going to move on, let it go, and ignore the past. No point in dwelling upon it. Apologies at this point are also meaningless. I’m not going in depth with my reason why, when anyone can just read my old posts on here.
I’m usually a forgiving person but at this point I’ve been bitter since this year. Thank you.
Don’t ever try to tell me this isn’t art. This is fucking art.
At very first I like, didn’t understand what he was doing with the palette knife, and then I was like YOU ARE NOT YOU FUCKING FUCK
I’ve been so frustrated lately. Something I just want to fill in the void in my life. Finding the other half to fill it in. Even if it’s just for a while, I wouldn’t mind. I learned that we can’t be happy for the rest of our lives because at some point we wouldn’t be happy with our lives. Knowing that we live in a “perfect” lifestyle can be mundane.
Whenever I see couples walking down the streets, hands interlocking with one another, looking into each other’s eyes, and ignore the rest of the world. Even if it’s just for a second, minute, or a year; I wouldn’t mind being in that person’s shoes.. I want it.
You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.
I haven’t made a post in a long time and I think it’s time that I should.
Warning: I know that this is directed at someone and I honestly do not have any regrets.
I made a mistake today. I shouldn’t have bothered to even reschedule a hang out when I’ve been fed lies in the first place. You know what I’m talking about. The typical response/answer you give to your “friends” saying that you guys should hang out but that usually never happens.
Just cut the crap. If you don’t want to hang out, talk to me, or even see me. Just say so. Don’t beat around the bush and feel bad about saying no. You know what hurts the most? It is that I’m not getting answers or being avoided.
Is this how you treat all your friends or just me? Why is it that every time I tried to arrange a hang out with you, all you have done is just avoiding me. Am I that revolting for you to talk/see? This isn’t the first time you have bailed on me. 1. Breakfast was the time you didn’t even bother to consider to wake up, after you agreed to meet up. I waited in my car 3 hours for you. 3 hours. You apologized and I played it off like it was nothing. 2. The hangout at my apartment with all the friends we know for an apartment tour. You said you would show up and you didn’t. 3. Do I even need to explain this one? This was last week when you said you would back for us to hang out. I even requested a day off for you. You didn’t even bother to let me know in advance if you were coming back soon or not. 4. TODAY. I don’t even need to explain this one.
I obviously said I was done with this and obviously I am not. I am so frustrated and I really hope that the next person that requests to hang out with you, that you won’t do the same like you did to me.
I can’t believe I’ve liked you for so long. At some point I just wanted us to even hang out to get to know each other.. I guess it’s one of those things when you pay close attention enough, you notice some of the flaws. I honestly don’t care if you ever apologize because it’s overplayed. There’s no need to apologize for all the bullshit you’ve put me through. I just want people who are honest and upfront.
However, I do want to say this. You’re a wonderful person towards others you’re closer with. I am obviously not one of those people. Don’t treat me like you treat other new people that come into your life. That’s just my two cents of thoughts.